hoplesslyweak
deeplyhurt
blindlylost
foolishlydumb
headfullofqns
wantonoethetruth.butafraidto
bloodycoward
weakling
nobody

ever felt like there are many needles piercing into ur heart at the same time?
ever felt as if ur heart being squeezed..as if u will suffer a heart attack any moment?
ever felt so sick in ur stomach suddenly?
ever lost ur appetite and every mouth of food u take..the more u feel like puking?
ever felt tat u have suddenly lost grip of everything..ur life..ur heart..ur mind?
ever felt like u haven been thrown off the highest storey over and over again?
ever felt so hurt tat u become sick..with fever..vomit and faint..leg goes weak and nothin is right?
ever felt so angry and hurt but still cant bear to stay angry?
ever cried so badly tat pple think u lost ur dad or mum (*choi*)?
ever felt tat u have already lost a piece of ur shattered heart and its impossible to mend it back?

haiz..i feel as if i let down everyone..everyone who cared...sorry...sorry yeh..jiajia...yun..char...geri..rence...russ...jorene...fq...everyone..i have tried my best to stay strong..inside and outside..but..i am failing..i really tired..inside..i am hopeless already...but i am still trying to stay strong on the outside..=) i promise i will try my very best not to breakdown..i will pull myself back together..no more toilet breaks jus to let everything out..no more puffy eyes...no more sleepless night..one day...u will see the old karen...the cheerful girl who has no worries of the heart..jus give mi time..more time..so u guys stay cheerful for mi k? *smileS* love u guys..thanks for being there *hugs*

*pullmeoutofmynightmarepls*