work or no work

ahhhhhhhhhhh..
right now i cant stand my work...
i dunno y..
arghh..

i wanna do productions...
i wanted to learn..
like...pick up skills frm some pro in the industry kind..
but i dun seem to be able at RM..
Y?

everything got to fig out myself..
its good in a sense..
but..tats not wat i had in mind..
i wan to see how pple work..
learn new things from them...
but there is no one to learn frm!!

its like..i am dragging my feet to work everyday..
sux!

am seriously considering..
i got my resume ready..

haiz..
how?
but i kindof commited verbally alr..
jus short of the signed contract..
ahhhh..

wat to do?

//where is thou heart?