pple in my life

ok...i jus have a sudden urge to post..

hm..k..today..shall jus talk abt the pple tat inspires mi..
dunno how many of u noe stephanie leow....from KCP..and KC..
anyway...i have been keeping up with her blog in friendster for a rather long time alr..
i used to be her close fren in pri sch..
den i think i was a bitch last time...
cos i think i kind of judge pple..
and maybe i was a two face person or wat...lol..
i do not noe...cant really remember..
jus noe tat i learnt alot as i grew older and learn hw to treat pple better...
all i cld remember is tat i didnt really liked her before...
maybe it was a love/hate relationship..
lol...i used to go to her house and see her feed her kittens thur a bottle..
anyway...we lost contact for a lonnnngggg time..kindof miss her..
Oh...jus to addd,,,i dun dislike her or anything..
i guess i was jus so childish last time...

oh ya...maybe i cld take this opportunitie to apologise to her..
the one incident i remember till now and truely felt bad abt..
it was after PSLE i think...
and we planned to go vist mrs goh and make her a cake for her bday..
so steph kindof suggest it..and we planned to make the cake at my house with a few others..
so as the day neared..she heard tat i didnt like her and didnt wan her to come over..
so she didnt come...
i am sooo sorry...at tat point of time.i didnt bother to clarify things
and i jus let it be..
now i really regret...i kindof tot of hw i wld feel if i was u..
haiz..
anyway...i dun think u will ever read this.but i wanna jus apologise..and hope it didnt affect u in any way...
sorry....*hugs*

okok..anyway..back to the topic.
today....as in...presently....i really admire her...
she is a mother...and have been thru alot..
her blog of her daily lifes and her tots is really inspirational and heart warming..
seriously.
i mean..
she has been thru so much.and give up so much...
and i really wanna tell her tat i am very proud of her...
she is so forgiving...caring...and positive..
and her daughter is so damn cute...
u makes u wanna have a child of ur own....

its so werid..but i have a few friends..
tat i am not close to or not in contact currently..
but i still feel so close and "connected" to them at the same time
its like..everytime u think of them...u still have tat warm feeling..
steph is definately one of them..=)

the other one....is charm-e (charmaine minus e)
haha...tats wat she called herself last time.
she said the nurse spelt rongly..and didnt add the E..
cute..
and...i love her to bits!
haha.she is really a very gd fren...
very giving, not selfish at all..

steph didnt put wat happened to heart,
although she didnt say it..
but i can feel tat she didnt let it affect the friendship..
and didnt bear any grudges...
tat day(rather long..abt a yr back) , wen i met her,
she was still so cheerful and friendly...=)
it felt gd...

and charm,
she left mi a testimonial..
all those nice memories she had of mi..
i didnt quite agree..
she claimed tat i was her loanshark..(as in,,i was always leanding her money wen she didnt have enugh and stuff)
and tat i chose her despite so many pple "wanting to be ny bestfren"..lol..etc etc
in fact..i tot tat was HER who kept lending mi money and buying mi stuffs..
and HER tat was so popular tat i was afraid someone wld steal her frm mi..
lol..

and recently,
sherlyn...whom i also didnt contact for a long time talk to mi on msn..
and it still felt so close...
like...no barriers..we talked abt our lives now..
and she even encouraged and believed in mi..
and told mi not to give up
although it might not seem much..
but i was really touched...
usually....it wld sound akward..
but it wasnt..it was so heart warming..
thanks girl!
u gave mi motivation...

and also not to forget my girlfrens...who stood by mi all these while..
yun...i love u girl...i am gald to noe we can be truthful to each other..no matter how evil we can be..haha..
char....even though we dun contact or meet up much these days..i noe u r still so concern abt mi..i love u too
jiajia...i noe u dun really noe how to console pple..jus like mi..lol..but u r a gd listener..and u dun judge pple..=)
geri...truthfully, i do not noe if u r still there for mi..but i chose to believe u r..sometimes, i wld be angry at u for doing things tat efinately hurt mi alot, but i believe i also did hurt u in one way or other...sometime i wished tat u wld talk to mi..tell mi how u feel..tell mii wat went rong..but i cant force u..its ur choice...i understand diff pple got diff character...althought i do get angry at u occassionally, but i wan to let u noe tat it will go away as fast it comes...there is no grudges...and i will still be here wen u need mi...thanks for ur part in my life...


i guess, after thinking abt it..
true frens nv judge....
no matter how bad u will look/seem to others,
ur true fren will only see the positive side of u..
and if u ever stray..
they will bring u back and nv let u go..

anyway..
i really wan to thank all u girls who helped shaped my character...
without u..i wun be who i am today..
thank u for being there for mi and believing in mi...
u girls will stay in my heart forever..

//friends builds the foundation, time builds the character