emo

i so wanna go back in time..
so many regrets...

i wan my gfs back..
the girls in blue pinafore...
when we had lesser responsibilities,
we had lesser worries...
we were able to be ourselves..
carefree and innoccent.

what happened?

I have always believed in my friends...
trusted them.. cos i noe they mean good.
but...i am always mis-interpreted, misunderstood.
like someone told me once..
"although u are really blur and naive, sometime pple are thinking u are actually quite smart and cunning"
at that point..i really duno wat to think..
its was jus "huh? serious? didnt cross my mind."
but i suppose u have to trust ur frens..
i mean...if u dun trust them...they arent really ur frens rite?

sometimes i ask myself...
am i putting too much hope in my frens? am i trusting them too much..
shld i hold back..
but...i always conclude that they are worth it..cos i really treasure them..
and i trust that they will always be there for me.

anyway...to tat doodoo
that day wen u said u cant help me,
and that i have to help myself.
and u kind of tick mi off for dragging it and hurting everyone else.
well. i heed ur advice.
and it wasnt easy for me. but i felt the pressure, and sum up the courage
I jus wanna thank u..and hope u will still be there for me k?
although u said u are not going to talk to anyone of us anymore and u dun wan to be part of us.
I wan u to know that i will be here for u
u dun wan to be part of us. but i wan to be part of u. and i hope u will come back into our life.
miss u lots.
sometimes we might seem to be taking u for granted, but we really need u ..
w/o u.. its jus not the same.
sometimes we seem like we dun care, but we really do.
talk to us soon k? pls?

anyway..i have decided to do something to my hair..
mayeh said : new hair, new beginning
and i totally agree

anyway...jus wanna tell everyone i love them and miss them so much..one way or other..haha..if u noe wat i mean...


okok...i am jus blabbling my inner thoughts...
pls excuse me..

//lookattherainbow.