tots

sometimes, i wonder,
where r those pple wen u need them..
y they all disppear..
wat a great timing.

remember u said i wun be lonely.
u encouraged me.
i trust u.
did wat i tot was right,
u promised mi tat "cushion"
I trust u wld cushion my fall
but, i felt the cold hard ground.

u didnt give mi the chance to thank u.
for the support.
and the harsh words to wake mi up.
and give mi the courage to end wat i shld have ended a long time ago.

everytime i have a problem,
everytime i ask for opinion.
u girls shld noe i am jus asking.
and in the end.
i still wun come to a conclusion
u girls noe that i jus need assurance.
i jus need a listen ear.
i jus need ur advice.
and in the end.
i will still be undecided.
i noe i have to decide my own future.
my own problems.
but its jus me.
i think too much
weighing the pros and cons.
but i jus need u girls to be there.
for me.
to cushion me fall.
to pull me up,
to lend mi ur shoulder to cry on.
u girls noe tat rite?

i am bloody weak. i noe.

but i have to act strong.
i seriously felt like i was left to die alone.
affter being assured that i wun be alone,
i felt cheated. kindof
i have always made a point to be there for u girls wenever u need me.
not becos i have to.
but becos i wan to.
i wan to be available wenever u girls need me,
i wan to be part of ur life.
i wan u grow old with u girls.

hw abt u?
do u feel the same?

//wonderingmind