another sad post

i hate reality...
am i unrealistic?
am i being silly?
am i jus decieving myself? like most of u have been telling me...

tonite, after talking to him,
i jus burst into tears.
maybe reality hit me.
maybe everything seemed so far, and unreal nw.

but..i am not giving up.
i am not going to live my life regreting wat i have already regreted.
haiz, but i really need all the support.
i cant do this alone..can i?

dun think i can really sleep tonite.
arghh...i jus cant stop thinking..
and once i think..my tear glands are rather active as well..
stupid..
k la...
i shall spend my night setting my life's goal..
haha...and try to abide to it..
which will be SOOOOO not karen..and sooo difficult..
but i will try..
*pat on back*

JIAYOU!

//the world is big...karen is small...big world crushes small karen....