sudden urge to blog...
this will be a lonnnnngggg post.....
jus uploaded pictures frm my hp...
so many many pics to upload..hehe..
IF i dun get too lazy before the end of this entry..

jus had prata with skippy and deon...
yummy..long time since i went there for prata.
the last was... i think....wen i brough drunk ivan there..and he vomited.
It has also been so long since i spend so much time with skippy.
and also not forgeting jane...but mostly skip cos jane is lazy!
VERY!!!!!!!!

I really miss our sec4 days..
where we see each other EVERYDAY! sitting nxt to each other..
and going to parkway after sch....
awwwwwww..
my eyes are getting teary...jus thinking of those times...
sigh...

WHY DO WE HAVE TO GROW UP!
bleah...
if only cheryl is able to join us..
hehe....

I really enjoy the last few days with skippy.
and i guess the past week not doing anything productive is not really a waste.
i kindof realised i dont really wanna go aussie for studies anymore..

if i go over..
i will really miss my gfs...
my squid...toady...cheryl mummy..
home is the best i guess..
i got my mummy and papa...

and maybe i can jus get skippy to save $$ wen she start working nxt yr after she grad, and we can go aussie backpack for 2 weeks?
SKIPPY! hear tat?? hehe..

i realised mi and skippy dun have mch pics together in sec sch..
Y AH?
so....here are the pics we took...
to make up for the lack of visual memories last time..
hehe




those were taken at MOX
all thanks to shar...
her cuzzie's bday party.
free flow drinks...=)
afterwhich we proceed to butterfactory..
the interior is very colourful...cartoon graphics..
i like.

hehe...

hm...*Sudden thought*
i need a haircut..
at least to trim and maybe thin it abit..
right? right.

back to updates...
i am going to KL tmr!
and i haven pack!
wats new...
KAREN LALANG KOH IS SO LAZY!
so ...i shall pack tmr....morning..
b4 leaving my hse to wheelock to get the stupid paper signed..
but den again.. I alr got paid.
y am i going to get it signed?? waste my time
but xiaoyu says i need it to process my pay (which had alr been credited to my account)
grrrr..

anyway....come...
lets hear my plan...
as in...for my future...
*drum rolls*
i am going to look for a job after i come back frm KL..
or i shall work part-time...while looking for a full time 9-5 job
den i shall enroll for the nxt intake for some degree in marketing..
cool? cool.

haha..ok...
i shall stop thinking too much for nw.

ok..actually.
right nw...another thing is bugging me..
why do pple only cherish or put more effort when the r/s is threathened..
grrrrrrr...
y cant it be consistant..
and why am i"said" for things...which i tot u were guilty of...
i jus didnt bother to defend myself...cos i was jus so utterly disappointed.
YES... i am so disappointed in YOU!
*roar*
y do i always feel so inferior with u.
ok..not always..arghhh.i duno..
but i feel like a freaking loser..
always trying to get ur attention.
and u on the other hand..only seem interested in ur studies..
u promised to call..
u didnt..
u promised to come online..
u didnt...
emails i sent...
unreplied...
sms i sent...
sometimes the conversation "breaks halfway"

i know u got studies and is very busy..
i understand u really wana excel badly..
i noe u are trying ur best to maintain this long dist r/s and ur studies..

BUT..
do u think u are putting in enough?
do u think i deserve slightly more of ur attention and time?
do i mean as much as u meant to me?

I WAS really sure i wld be able to wait..
for 7 years? (nw it seems so surreal)
maybe i was possessed by the horrible LOVE BUG.
but i really trustd myself..and him...that we will make it thru

yes...all those pple who were laughing at me (if any)
can all laugh out loud and in my face..right nw..
who am i kidding..
i am seriously not prepared to face all these shit..
i guess the "honeymoon" period is over..
but.....my feelings were very strong....
i was doing things i didnt think i wld do...
for u.

like a certain somebody said..
u r "ruining" my life w/o realising it..
maybe cos i listened to u too much...
and u are not even here. so ur directions might not be the most accurate.

but not to worry...
i wun blame the "mistakes" on u...
its all my fault.....(if any)
ultimately decisions are made...by me....

ok..enough of ranting..
i feel better nw...
although it will all cloud my brain again
right nw...hopefully i can go sleep

turning 21 in abt 2 weeks time...
sad
i dun really look forward to it..
cos i dun wanna grow up..
i hate it..
i wanna stay in sch forever...
the workng world sux..
adults sux..
i wanna stay small or rather...young forever.

children's day is over...
=(

anyway...
i guess i wld jus have a simple bday gathering...
maybe jus small bbq at my place..
=)
everyone is invited..
jus let me know..so i can prepare food..
u all can bring alcohol if u all wan..
but let mi tell u first :
I WILL NOT DRINK EVER AGAIN!

hehe...

ok la...lazy alr...
shld leave u guys with my master piece..


hehe...nice?

I WAN A HUG RIGHT NW! *hugs*









*ps: excuse my typos...i think there shld be quite a few...haha

//ilovemyfriendsmuchmuchfrmthebottomofmyheart