arghhh

I am back frm Guangzhuo!!!!

so glad to be in Singapore...
anyway..reached home at 6plus 7...

unppacked..

slept at 8am..
woke up at 1pm

meet the girls and their bf..

tonite.
i finally had a closure to the geri-karen-issue.

although i appeared ok after a while..
i was hurting like hell inside...
all along, i have always believed wat my frens say:
all things will be ok, it jus need time.
well..
apparently not.

frm tonite,
it was clear that she is NOT givng in.
not even one bit.
i am willing to take watever blame,
i am prepared to put all behind,
i even said "sorry"

i really cant remember wat happened alr..
but according to her, i "abandon" her for new frens..
but for me, i tot she "abandon" me for bf.
so wat now?

hw can thingsa turn out like tat?
this is the burning qns i have been asking myself.
i am..wat the hell happened?
i still can get it in my head.

i finally got a closure of some sort..
but its not wat i wanted, at least not something like tat.
in my dreams, i didnt even tot it wld turn out like tat.

watever happen, watever problems,
both side have fault, little or more,
both sides are at fault in someway..
am i not right?
no one is an angel...rite?

or am i wrong abt that "logic"?

suddenly, i dunno anymore..
seriously, i really dunno wat happened anymore.
i am confused.
i really dunno where to accept that this friendship will totally gone
or shld i still cling on the hope that things will take a turn...

ok..now i dunno wat i am typing anymore..
its jus..ARGH
i dunno anything!

ITS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE LIKE TAT!

THIS IS THE WORSE BDAY EVER! *screams*
i dun have a cake..
no pressie (yet)
no bday hug
no bf to celebrate with me
nothing..
i dun even get to see my bday msges cos my bro deleted them b4 i cld read..
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

//fuckinghelllshithead