WHY IS THE TAGBOARD NOT WORKING!
helpppppp.... ='(

i feel so arghhh..
its like as if i fell into depression all over again..
its like the "wm incident"..
all the crying and stuffs.
i hate myself..

i noe i shld be stronger
i noe i shld get up and continue my life
at least i noe for sure i still have yun and jia...
and jorene..
rite?

but why am i so weak!
hai...

u noe wat...
i think i am guilty..
1 hate myself..
i blame myself..
i started all these..
if i did "abandon" her, the way she claimed..
if i didnt find new frens..
all these wldnt have happened...

i was the one who strained the relationship..
actually...both of us to be fair..
but apparently, she has NO fault...
OR maybe, i shldnt choose going to TP..
i shldnt choose IMD..

but wats the point of saying all these now..
its all over...or is it not?
i really pray for the latter.
i dunno why..
am i still clinging on to something that is impossible?

I feel that i owe my four gf...
i broke the friendship ring..
i spoilt something that cld have last a lifetime..

now, i am worried abt char,
i dun wanna lose her too...

but i feel so insecure now..
i feel scared...
i dun have any control..
and knowing that she has misunderstood me too..
i am afraid..

but tat aside..
i really wanna thank everyone who stood by me..
JIA YUN...I LOVE U GIRLS...sorry to have cause all the tears...
i really didnt mean it...
IF i cld turn back time,
all these might not happened..
i would have paid attention to her,
be more thickskin and stick to her and shawn..

but..i also noe there is no point saying all these,
there is no way i can turn back time...

sorry...

//sigh